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Frankly, I'm not sure why I want to post something quite personal specifically here in DeviantArt, since I'm not exactly that popular around here, but I think I'm more interested in just getting the story out.
Either way, I've been accepted into BCIT! (Well, I will be as long as I keep my C+ in Math up, which fortunately I managed to get a B in my current term.) And I'm taking the Architectural and Building Engineering Technology Diploma course - a mouthful, I know.
Why a diploma? Well, firstly because I'm not really sure if this is the line of work that I want to be in, so I just want to get the feels of how the whole field works. If it doesn't, then I could just save myself and my parents the trouble of doing a BS, get a job with my diploma, and do whatever I gotta do! Sounds awesome right!? I guess it is!
But to be honest, I don't really know. I wanted a future involving art, (Animation? Video gaming? Film?) but in my current situation, with a family who wants the assured stability at the very least for their children, I'm gonna have to settle with the diploma course. I know where they're coming from, and I understand, that's why I'm taking it up, but nevertheless I can't say that I wasn't deeply... crippled? (A whole lot of arguing had to be pursued to convince me into it, and believe me when I say I have my internal relapses!) I guess it's one of those scenarios where you gotta let go of your dreams... for the meantime at least. -shrug-
I believe the disappointment have affected my ability to work on my AP Art effectively... I get thoughts of how I'm going to make time for art, or if I could ever have a future with it anymore. The question, "What's the point!?" would bug me a lot. Now I'm typing it all down here trying to understand myself.
But you know what I think? I think I've spent a lot of my time complaining and being all depressed, or procrastinating, rather than working on the things that really matter! YouTube videos, replaying the same things in the NDS (I can't blame it though, I love Crystal Chronicles!), and Googling my shit, I forget about making time for art! I mean, it's all just time management right? If I can just get myself out of my internal shithole, I could start doing my art thang again! Yeah!
And of course, my school responsibilities. I mean, as much as it's just pure BS, I'm not just gonna settle for less right? Guess I got a mindset to work on! Art's gonna be there for me, but am I gonna be there for art? I'm sorry, I'm busy trying to make an appointment with ART RIGHT NOW SO YOUR QUESTION IS INVALID.
Man it's great to rant. \m/
Either way, I've been accepted into BCIT! (Well, I will be as long as I keep my C+ in Math up, which fortunately I managed to get a B in my current term.) And I'm taking the Architectural and Building Engineering Technology Diploma course - a mouthful, I know.
Why a diploma? Well, firstly because I'm not really sure if this is the line of work that I want to be in, so I just want to get the feels of how the whole field works. If it doesn't, then I could just save myself and my parents the trouble of doing a BS, get a job with my diploma, and do whatever I gotta do! Sounds awesome right!? I guess it is!
But to be honest, I don't really know. I wanted a future involving art, (Animation? Video gaming? Film?) but in my current situation, with a family who wants the assured stability at the very least for their children, I'm gonna have to settle with the diploma course. I know where they're coming from, and I understand, that's why I'm taking it up, but nevertheless I can't say that I wasn't deeply... crippled? (A whole lot of arguing had to be pursued to convince me into it, and believe me when I say I have my internal relapses!) I guess it's one of those scenarios where you gotta let go of your dreams... for the meantime at least. -shrug-
I believe the disappointment have affected my ability to work on my AP Art effectively... I get thoughts of how I'm going to make time for art, or if I could ever have a future with it anymore. The question, "What's the point!?" would bug me a lot. Now I'm typing it all down here trying to understand myself.
But you know what I think? I think I've spent a lot of my time complaining and being all depressed, or procrastinating, rather than working on the things that really matter! YouTube videos, replaying the same things in the NDS (I can't blame it though, I love Crystal Chronicles!), and Googling my shit, I forget about making time for art! I mean, it's all just time management right? If I can just get myself out of my internal shithole, I could start doing my art thang again! Yeah!
And of course, my school responsibilities. I mean, as much as it's just pure BS, I'm not just gonna settle for less right? Guess I got a mindset to work on! Art's gonna be there for me, but am I gonna be there for art? I'm sorry, I'm busy trying to make an appointment with ART RIGHT NOW SO YOUR QUESTION IS INVALID.
Man it's great to rant. \m/
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Huh.
1 min read
Even to this day, I still wonder how people manage to make bad-ass art around here. Honestly, I'm kind of jealous. Still, art is art, no matter what you make of it and what its outcome is. The important thing is to continue being open to new ideas as well as lessons. And keep an open-mind. These are the essence to learning.
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Devious Journal Entry
2 min read
I KNOOOOW I just started posting stuff, but... A categorized theme really gives me ideas to work with. So I shall work on these!
My 100 theme challenge list:
1. Hero
2. Proposition
3. Fantasy
4. Lock and Key
5. Heart
6. Poison
7. Burn
8. Panties
9. Sacrifice
10. Busted
11. Reflection
12. Addicted
13. Haunted
14. Mask
15. Stalker
16. Web
17. Storm
18. I. cant.
19. Mislead
20. Memory
21. No way out
22. The old days
23. Emotional
24. Come ON!
25. Chains
26. Action
27. Need
28. After A Battle
29. Gone
30. Original Character
31. Realistic
32. Moonlight
33. Holiday
34. FUCK
35. Do not disturb
36. Midnight
37. Weapon
38. Sick
39. Transformation
40. Fear
41. Under Water
42. Future
43. Fire
44. Wings
45. And?
46. During A Battle
47. Text
48. Progress
49. Upside Down
50. Unseen
51. In the rain
52. Princess
53. Confrontation
54. Keeping a secret
55. Quote
56. Sharp
57. Fading
58. No Color
59. Censored
60. River
61. Message
62. Tattoo
63. Dirty
64. Dinner for two
65. What If....
66. Past
67. Lace
68. Envy
69. Study
70. End of the World
71. Cheat
72. House on the hill
73. Thank you
74. Tool
75. Death
76. Give
77. Bird
78. Fun
79. Honor
80. Jewelry
81. Anniversary
82. Coming Home
83. Chaos
84. Fashion
85. Wood
86. Drunken
87. Rape
88. Bunny
89. Breakfast
90. Eventually
91. Scar
92. Redesign
93. Fast
94. Blood
95. Sparkle
96. X (marks the spot)
97. Identity
98. Move
99. Snow
100. Alone
F--- yeah.
My 100 theme challenge list:
1. Hero
2. Proposition
3. Fantasy
4. Lock and Key
5. Heart
6. Poison
7. Burn
8. Panties
9. Sacrifice
10. Busted
11. Reflection
12. Addicted
13. Haunted
14. Mask
15. Stalker
16. Web
17. Storm
18. I. cant.
19. Mislead
20. Memory
21. No way out
22. The old days
23. Emotional
24. Come ON!
25. Chains
26. Action
27. Need
28. After A Battle
29. Gone
30. Original Character
31. Realistic
32. Moonlight
33. Holiday
34. FUCK
35. Do not disturb
36. Midnight
37. Weapon
38. Sick
39. Transformation
40. Fear
41. Under Water
42. Future
43. Fire
44. Wings
45. And?
46. During A Battle
47. Text
48. Progress
49. Upside Down
50. Unseen
51. In the rain
52. Princess
53. Confrontation
54. Keeping a secret
55. Quote
56. Sharp
57. Fading
58. No Color
59. Censored
60. River
61. Message
62. Tattoo
63. Dirty
64. Dinner for two
65. What If....
66. Past
67. Lace
68. Envy
69. Study
70. End of the World
71. Cheat
72. House on the hill
73. Thank you
74. Tool
75. Death
76. Give
77. Bird
78. Fun
79. Honor
80. Jewelry
81. Anniversary
82. Coming Home
83. Chaos
84. Fashion
85. Wood
86. Drunken
87. Rape
88. Bunny
89. Breakfast
90. Eventually
91. Scar
92. Redesign
93. Fast
94. Blood
95. Sparkle
96. X (marks the spot)
97. Identity
98. Move
99. Snow
100. Alone
F--- yeah.
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